Let's see if I can find a suitable picture to represent this day today of overload. Doing 100s of things simulteanously results in a...big blob, read nothing. This picture up here is absolutely nothing. Devoid of thought, idea, symbol, accuracy, meaning. It contains only the action of clicking while uploading, scrolling while blending and modification while choosing contrast in saturation. Not an image I am pleased of, I would prefer structure before creation right now.

So, I give a little piece of me to you and wishing for a wonderful Valentine’s!

Bucharest Brass Savas Jazzy from Katarina Antonsdotter on Vimeo.

During my time at the Academy of Music in Bucharest, I was a part of the Bucharest Brass Ensemble.

This video is a recent conversion from my VHS recording of our live performance on TVR, Romanian

TV, in the music program of Iosif Sava. This was probably around 1996.

Bucharest Brass Mateador from Katarina Antonsdotter on Vimeo.

GOTHENBURG CITY ON SUNDAY 21ST THE SUNNIEST DAY OF OCTOBER

‘Katz is not in for the moment. Please leave a message after the beep. Beep.’

I am so hungry, so hungry!!

In this air I will translate, it is just not right to all of you English speaking people out there, giving me energy to print whatever pops out of my hungry heart.

How will this turn out, well I try at least:

Stop the clocks, tear off the toilet paper, shut off the coffee machine, squeeze out the last frosting, turn down the volume and stop singing Christer Sandelin’s  What she wants, because he doesn’t know at all what she wants. The muscles stopped moving and nerves don’t know which way to go. Like snakes our joy slip in curves of sprinkles. Clap the beat of the rhythm in the house and listen to the breaths of trains. They don’t stop, they just roll, whistle and scream…and there is probably nothing you can do to prevent that. You will puff the pillows and sit as comfortable as possible, to last the whole way front row. You have to last the whole way VIP. You cannot show your teeth to time. She does not at all suffer from fear, she is completely ignorant and chews V65 to digest magnesium instead of the lost phosphor. Not until the ground explodes will time stop ticking on our sidewalk. Meanwhile we sing quietly David Bowie’s talented Unwashed and Slightly Dazed, we don’t want to cry again during Time after Time! Update your abstinence, and pretend that sprawling addiction is not your fault. I have had it now with Pacman and will go scrolling spiral pasta, all in polymerase atmosphere. I don’t feel like passing my genes along, I want to satisfy those that I have, maybe switch places on a few, silence some just to avoid dreadful, advancing boredom. Björn: don’t let the wolves come close, for the sound in your ear will become louder. The last drop of Theralen (40mg/ml) is mixed with wishy-washy strawberry lemonade and kicks in as the child owns the joy of excursions and youth rushes to the producer’s amazing high. The common don’t want to see clearly, but instead continue in spread footprints, direction Borås. Fair trade represents a welcome word of excuse that compensates for those who cannot trample. So we relax to Law and Order and try to be grateful that we know what is right and wrong. Turn off the lights and look forward to the next day, also in rain we can start activity: Do it with Lars Wallin over all bounderies. I think absolutely we should be happy about our royalties.

Now show me your true haze in the face of infectivity. Eh, I stop here, because I could go on forever with this spinning spit of words.

Explanations: Christer Sandelin was a famous 80′s Swedish singer. V65 is a ‘healthy’ chewinggum. Björn: Björn Ranelid, a famous Swedish writer, suffers from tinnitus, and coined the famous phrase: Bär ditt barn som den sista droppen vatten = Carry your child as the last drop of water. Borås is a small, boring town near Gothenburg. Lars Wallin is a famous fashion designer in Sweden.  

When I see your face…..you’re amazing just the way you are.

This picture was shot by me in Värnamo this week, and edited by juxtaposing my shadow captured in Stockholm also this week. The bloody nurse heads were shot and found in the Gothenburg city today.  All in all we can say that this pic was born in more places.

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/10/when-i-last-saw-you-laughing/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/10/tidens-trofasta-tander/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/10/tidens-trofasta-tander/#comments Thu, 18 Oct 2012 09:44:51 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=8531 Stanna alla klockor, riv av toalettpappret, stäng av kaffekokaren, kläm ur sista kristyren, sänk volymen och sluta sjung Christer Sandelins Det hon vill ha, för han vet alls inte vad hon vill ha. Musklerna har slutat röra sig och nerverna vet ej vilken väg att gå. Likt ormar slår glädjen slint i kurvor av strössel. Klappa takten i husets rytm och lyssna efter tågens andetag. De stannar inte, de bara kör och tutar och skriker… och det finns nog inget du kan göra för att förhindra det. Du ska fluffa till kudden och sätta dig så bekvämt som möjligt, för att kunna orka hela vägen front row. Du måste orka hela vägen VIP. Det går ej att visa tänderna till tiden. Hon är inte det minsta drabbad av rädsla, hon är helt likgiltig och snaskar V65 för att få i sig magnesiumet istället för den förlorade fosforn. Först då marken exploderar slutar tiden att gå på vår trottoar. Till dess sjunger vi tyst Bowie’s begåvade Unwashed and Somewhat Slightly Dazed, vi vill inte gråta under Time after Time en gång till! Uppdatera abstinensen, och låtsas som om spretigt beroende inte är ditt fel. Nu har jag fått nog av Pacman och ska scrolla skruvpasta, allt i polymeras atmosfär. Jag har ingen lust att föra mina gener vidare, jag vill tillfredsställa de jag har, kanske tom byta plats på några om jag kan, silence some bara för att undvika förfärlig utvecklingsleda. Björn: låt inte vargarna komma nära, för då blir ditt ljud i örat högre. Den sista droppen Theralen (40mg/ml) ska blandas med blaskig jordgubbssaft och insjunkna samtidigt som barnet äger utflyktens glädje och ungdomen höjer sig i producentens fantastiska rus. Allmänheten vill inte se tydligt, utan bara fortsätta i spridda fotspår mot riktning Borås. Fair trade utgör ju ett välkommet tillflyktsord som kompenserar för de som inte kan trampa. Så kan vi slappna av till Law and Order och försöka vara tacksamma att vi vet vad som är rätt och fel. Släck ljusen och se fram emot nästa dag, också i regn kan vi starta aktivitet: Do it med Lars Wallin över alla gränser. Jag tycker absolut att vi ska vara glada över kungahuset.

Idag, firar vi kreativitetens existens och fortsätter i samma anda under hela infektionens sanning. Jag har mycket att säga och ventilera. Snälla låt mig få göra det, tack för att jag får göra det. Vi säger så.

In my visible reality såg jag detta:

http://t-rawjewelry.blogspot.se/

so quick n easy to upload directly from the phone. this pic was made with my new photo apps:

Dynamic light, Snapseed, Fotorus, iRetouch.

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/09/latentlucia-instagram/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/09/blog-move/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/09/blog-move/#comments Tue, 25 Sep 2012 20:39:34 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=8394 Dear all visitors,
I just want to inform you of my present absence lately, that I am trying to set up a new site, which together with everything else in my life at the moment, takes a wee bit time. I hope I can make some use on this adress until then. Miss you…

this beautiful rainbow was spotted right outside my work the other day

it was not one rainbow but 2

MY FIRST ANIMATED GIF made IN PHOTOSHOP – A LOT OF FUN ACTUALLY

http://latentlucia.tumblr.com/

there was a nice rainbow in the sky, but a bit difficult to capture on my iphone, so I did my best in editing out the colors. do you see it?

really impossible to see anything when it is sunny outside

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/08/saltholmen-brygga/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/07/the-great-spaghetti-wake/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/07/the-great-spaghetti-wake/#comments Wed, 04 Jul 2012 23:39:17 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=8297 Tried to buy a new template to get this site in a better design, but turned out not to be right. Bummer. My gallery page disappeared in the tried-transfer and can’t get it back now. Bummer times two.

So here are some edits meanwhile of the Great Spaghetti Awakening:

why, yes, the above is also sghabetti, just a bit smooshed

and more candy from him:

‘The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.’

‘Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.’

‘”If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.’

‘Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.’

and the best part:

‘No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.’

and his final message from the 70′s ‘The Whole Earth Catalog‘ final issue’s back cover:

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Love it. Now I am going to go see about what kind of foolish love I will find today. I hope a lot. Let’s pray to Mr Magic that I do.

a foolish accident that happened yesterday, dropped out all the spaghetti from the cupboard, they fell so quickly all at once and made this funny statue

connecting will be done in the above posts

What should I do? Suggestions! Well, you cannot comment because these freaking, plugins and templates and you name it, all collide and fight, I am definitely no programmer. Nä, nu måste jag göra något! I have read the same articles over and over and OVER again!! I am getting only more hopeless with that! Running when it is rainy ain’t my cup of tea. Nope.

What is this I did now down here, have no idea. Some spatial structure with some nice colors. Big deal.

it is not upside down but still it is

Water Colors from Katarina Antonsdotter on Vimeo.

I am working on something and these are part of the final product, though the motif is something completely different from what I work on.

Two pictures of me. The one on the left is me as we see me, the other one on the

right is the same me but from the inside, inverted. Maybe this is what my twin looks like.

as I said, work is in progress

This is not a joke. Yesterday I image-googled herpes simplex and this is what I got.

Gives me another perspective of what it is I am spending my time with actually.

Just sharing one of the runs because I realized I have a category here on the blog which is called: ‘RUN THE MARATHON’. Yup. Me Kat going to Berlin Marathon 2012 30th of September. What a pity it is the 39th Berlin Marathon, it should have been the 40th since I turn 40 this year, a bit why it is so applicable to run my 1st Mara turning Mara so to speak. It could then have been a tripple 40: instead I can find a 42nd Marathon in the year of 2014 when I turn 42 and really run the right age. Wouldn’t that be absolutely exciting, unusual and unique? I wonder where that will be?

so many surfaces

can you still see me in there?

so far there are only 3D in here

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/06/abstract-considerations/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/06/according-to-buckyball/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/06/according-to-buckyball/#comments Fri, 15 Jun 2012 21:44:05 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7821 I sit on an island, with my legs crossed and look towards the ocean. I can feel the sand that I am sitting on, smooth but dazzling of grains, although make no mistake I was never really comfortable at the beach. The air is warm and sunny yellow. I am looking at myself and try to point my focus to the right direction, and the only one I see fit, begins inside. But the wind is blowing smoothly around me giving me lots of fresh breaths.

I have my generations that stand behind and above me, to the side and at a distance, and I know they remain solid because their existence makes me warmer than the sun. Then me, who is trying to extend by making something that can be touched and visualized.

So, I run in order to grow new arms that I can use to run even further with.

At what speed does all the information accumulate, connect and change position while an apparently changing surrounding seems static? There are too many possible outcomes that cannot be predicted, so we give the complex a name. Meanwhile, I have to carry the cloud of life in my arms because it is mine. It has an air of mist, transparent puffiness like grey marshmallows. Yes, that is my life. Like a big, grey, transparent marshmallow that is devoid of crystal structure.

Oh, oH.

I have to make sure it doesn’t shrink. If I turn my head and point my eyes towards me, maybe I get a better look at what I am supposed to do? My eyes are brown, my hair is dark long and my body lean, thin and flexible not to mention soft and bendable. I have to accept the fact that the waves I am made of are just enclosed within a barrier in order to function due to this inadequate protrusion of a circulating universe.

Well, I would really like to see what it looks like in the world next to me, let’s say in the 8th dimension. I cannot understand how the origin of protein translation, let alone the determination of creating a complex system encoded by some acidic-dependent environment, crossed the space of time and determined to position it’s model at the right distance? Who decided carbons were to become acidic? Try to make something out of the fractions of knowledge (pftfttt?!) I succeeded to sponge so far. I think it is not enough, because it is NOT ENOUGH.

Trying to compact as much as I can into my tiny space, is not even relevant; it creates a lot of electrical activity in me right now. I need to rest for a while.

I can feel the rhythm now.

Donk a donk a konk a konk la leh al a….

Och så just another edit of the previous series of pics. Aloha!

 Puss och god natt.

Don’t forget your sun block even if you are only running!

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/06/healing/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/05/viva-swedeen/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/05/viva-swedeen/#comments Mon, 28 May 2012 21:38:44 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7787 Heja Loreen on the Eurovision Song Contest!

She won!

This blue-yellow (blågula) portrait will be saved for future support.

I want to get a bite in it, need to get us going! Fill me in and get all out!

The turtle was found in Japan, in one of the temple gardens.

I need some more magic in my life quickly. I have come into a deep valley of nothing. Need to get up from this grass hole, move on and start scoring. I feel it coming. Just need to capture it real well. Where do I go from here then?

Somewhere good I hope. Trying to look inside, to collect and lift up the surrounding, I want it close to my sphere. Not easy to grasp. I wait. Not many months left now.

I enjoy the colors of it. I have an image in my cortex and it looks like red. (I hope it is not too highly charged because we need to pass the barrier with it.)

Oj, I am so poietic (no it is right spelling coming from my astrocytes) tonight.

Tomorrow is a long, intensive day with lots of fika and bullar and god knows what other surprises will land on my aubergine/light brown hair so: Katschoong and good night.

or this way

curved way

Z*xYäSq*<3Ö**pfZ whay

I feel kind of cleaved now actually

(I am not happy with the look of my blog, and changes are upcoming but as in everything in my life: ‘Patience. It just takes a little bit longer time.’)

the making of marshmallows

small changes make a huge difference

the marshmallows now almost look like ice cubes

and now they look like ghosts – cute and fluffy ghosts?

and here come’s the recipe of these sweeties on Swedish, will update to English later

lägg ca 2.5msk gelatinpulver i 120ml vatten i blöt under tiden sockerblandning kokar.
Smörj en form med mycket neutral matolja. Smörj också slickepotten/skeden för att det inte ska bli klibbigt.

Mix:
4 dl strösocker
2 1/2 dl majssirap (eller vit sirap/ljus sirap eller glukos går bra)
1/4 tsk salt
120ml vatten

i en kastrull och koka upp, sedan på låg värme till 116 grader (ca). Jag har en godistermometer som är bra att ha för att kolla temperaturen. Det behöver nog koka 30min till 1hr.
Häll denna sockerblandningen i bunken med det upplösta gelatinet. Häll försiktigt
under tiden som du vispar med elvisp. Vispa i ca 15min tills massan är vit och tjock.
Tillsätt smak om du vill (1/2tsk pepparmintsextrakt, vaniljsocker etc) och vispa lite till.
Häll ordentligt med florsocker i den oljade formen. Häll i smeten i formen.
Om du vill ha lite röd marmormönster  så droppa i lite röd karamellfärg och dra runt med en kniv i cirklar.
Låt stå i rumstemperatur över natten tills det torkat (eller minst 8 timmar).
Ta ur marshmallowsen ur formen och skär bitar med en oljad kniv
eller klipp bitar med en oljad sax. Rulla i florsocker.
Piece of cake! =)

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/04/making-marshmallows/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/03/tangled/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/03/tangled/#comments Thu, 29 Mar 2012 14:54:17 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7693 (fr Botaniska, March 2012)

current status: there are no updates to speak about, no advances, no clear image lying ahead, no smooth path, no straight flow in front, no new sections, nope

all is TANGLED

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/03/tangled/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/02/reflecting-shadows/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/02/reflecting-shadows/#comments Sun, 26 Feb 2012 14:29:07 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7686 this is the same reflection, a bit different shot and I felt like doing it BW

shot in Botanisk on my way to Ängårdsbergen

Though at least one good production came out of it. I edited the pic to emphasize the reflection in the water that made me stop to take the picture, that is why I made the other objects sort of grayish.

I have more modifications of the image, as usual… The one above looks kind of funny doesn’t it?

Went down to have my weekly latte of course. Sun was shining and it was a lovely day.

can you see it? I painted it a bit pink like it actually is =)

However: the page allowed me to insert the images you see there, but now I don’t know how to add more, because they just don’t show up. Argghh!

I want to add more pics to the gallery page of course! And I don’t have the time now to spend hours in figuring out how. So instead I make new posts on the blog and add the pics there….Sigh!

An old pic shot in the harbor here in Gothenburg, in 2010.

The scene was lifted by the beautiful winter 17:00 evening light today, in combination with the lovely snow walk. I was surprised how late the sun set today actually, yay…

Äsch, I can’t help it – I like much better the modifications

I make another post with what I wanted to show here

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/snow-balls/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/sky-real/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/sky-real/#comments Wed, 25 Jan 2012 01:56:06 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7114

SKY from Katarina Antonsdotter on Vimeo.

Here is the unedited movie of the beautiful sky with the clouds..

for some reasons the movie did not accept a centered position in the post,

so I have to leave it to the left like that, which is a bit disturbing

NEGATIVE NEW YORK EAST COAST from Katarina Antonsdotter on Vimeo.

And here is another movie! This one is the coast line seen when flying into New York.

It was absolutely fabulous! The feeling I felt when I saw the coast line after 10yrs, the time when I moved back to Sweden from NY.

The feeling I had in my stomach, wow…it gives me tears in my eyes just thinking about it. =)

Beautiful isn’t it when editing like Negative?

Really it looks like a painting which is alive.

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/new-york-coast-line/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/negative-sky/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/negative-sky/#comments Wed, 25 Jan 2012 00:20:25 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7090

NEGATIVE SKY from Katarina Antonsdotter on Vimeo.

So this was filmed on my way to New York. The sky was so beautiful with all the clouds, although the unedited film is more beautiful.

Imagine image with inverted colors of sky and clouds, that is white and blue. Edit was made as Negative, with an 8mm filter in the app CinemaFXV app on iPhone.

It looks like a painting that moves I think…

(now the size of the video was saved as Medium, and the iphone cam is of course not that sharp when filmed from the plane, so it is a bit blurry, but anyway)

I tried to increase the light to make the heart stand out more, but it was a bit difficult since the whole picture changes shape while contrasts are formed due to exposure. So I tried to compromise with the channels to make at least a part of the picture a bit lighter. I think I succeeded a little with this, though only a fractionally lighter heart appeared…

]]> http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/pillars-of-the-scholas/feed/ 0 http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/elsterberg/ http://www.latentlucia.com/2012/01/elsterberg/#comments Mon, 09 Jan 2012 22:41:30 +0000 latentlucias http://www.latentlucia.com/?p=7044 On the way down the hill to Elsterberg. A bit more colorful and with a different light of day.

Funny.